If you ended up scrolling down here, congrats you get to know about what I've been up to lately. It's only been a week and lowkey my mood has been all over the place. There are times where I miss you a lot and I'm overthinking wondering if you're talking to someone new, and then other times where it's like I'm numb to it all like I just accept the reality for what it is. I'm still very unsure about this break because it's really scary not knowing at all what we'll become once it's over but at the moment I've kinda gotten past that anxiety. I understand that you're gonna make the choice that you think is best for you , and that's what you should do. I wish I could ask and beg you to stay but honestly I've lost the will to do that anymore. Whether you meet someone new or just end up deciding I'm not the one for you, that's okay. I don't want to compete with someone, chase after your attention, or continue to worry whether you'll leave for good and so I've just been working on myself. I've been going to the gym with friends now, going out to eat and just having fun with the teams (Most of the time it's just us hating on the team manager cause she's been absolutely obnoxious lately), and I'm honestly kinda impressed with how I've been able to deal with this. I hope you've been able to have some success during our break like I have, and if you haven't yet I'm sure it is coming soon. I've been seeing some of the tiktoks you've reposted recently and some of them kind of worry me because I don't want you to feel alone in this. I understand this break is supposed to give us space apart from each other but I don't want you to feel neglected and unloved in any of this. I am here anytime you need, just send me a text, call or anything you can even show up at school an we can sit and talk about whatever you want. All I ask is don't just keep me around for the sake of it. If you don't intend to try again or you find someone new but aren't sure it'll work out I don't want to just sit around practically waiting. But anyways on a lighter note, I really do hope you're okay and have found some peace in our time apart from one another. I love you Tanvi